It's Twins!!

I'm so sorry I didn't post this yesterday!!  Darrell and I found out yesterday that I am pregnant with twins.  Everything looked good and Dr. McKenzie was happy with what she saw.  I am still really early, only six weeks along, so we are praying that both babies continue to grow and that we are able to see/hear their heartbeats next week!  It was a very emotional appointment.  My nurse, Barb, was in the room with us too and she was so excited.  She even came over and gave me a kiss on my forehead.  Dr. McKenzie and Barb have made this such an amazing experience and have made me feel so comfortable.  They both obviously know our story and have just really made us feel special.

Another exciting part of the appointment is that I am now able to take the progesterone shot every three days instead of every day.  These shots have caused me A LOT of pain and discomfort!  The shot itself isn't bad, but the pain, welps, and knots that come after it are unbelievable!  So that was good news too!

Thank you all so much for your continued prayers! 

Happy Birthday Addibelle!

Today our sweet Addi would be three years old...that just seems crazy!  I try to think about what she would be like now and I'm imagining she would be quite the sassy little thing.  She was always so sweet, but she definitley had some sass when she wanted to.  These days are always hard.  I can't help but wonder what she would be into now.  She would be talking up a storm, I know, and I wish we could have experienced that.

Kicked back and relaxed

This has always been one of my favorite pics--love her hair!

We cherish all of the time that we had with her and are grateful for all of the memories that we have.  I love that we have so many pictures and videos to look at and watch!  Love that little angel and we know that she is in Heaven just as happy as can be!  Love you right up to the moon and back Addi!!

Just hanging out

Sweet Girl

The Results Are In

Soooo, today I went to the doctor for blood work to see if I am pregnant and it was POSITIVE!! Darrell and I are really excited!! Many tears of happiness were cried today. To be honest, I'm still on cloud nine. We go back on the 28th to find out how many babies there are...one or two!! I'm still taking meds and they will continue for the next few weeks.

Thanks SO, SO much for all of your continued thoughts and prayers! So excited to watch God's plan unfold!

The Day is Here!

The day is finally here!  Saturday (tomorrow) I will have the embryo transfer.  After five weeks of meds, they will be implanting two embryos.  Our egg donor had her eggs retrieved on Monday, and we found out on Tuesday that we had 18 healthy embryos fertilized.  I was told the procedure will only take 15 minutes and that I'll need to be off my feet for the rest of the day.  I'll go in nine days later to find out if I'm pregnant.  It's hard to believe that we started this process at the beginning of November, and tomorrow is the BIG day!

We have had a great experience so far.  The doctors and nurses are wonderful!  They know are story and have been so supportive!!  Thank you so much for all of your continued prayers!

Two Years

Today marks year two that Cade has been gone.  Time has flown by and it feels like he has been gone for so long (I know I say that ALL of the time, but it is so true).  He would be six years old, in the first grade, playing soccer, and annoying his sister.  Nothing changes, we miss him terribly and would give anything to touch, see, and hear him!  When we think about him and look at pictures we always smile.  He was such a sweet boy with a big heart.

We celebrate his life today and celebrate knowing where he is!  How wonderful to know that he is in the most amazing place where everything is perfect!  We love you so much Caderader...right up to the moon and back!!

Buzz Lightyear--we definitely got our money's worth out of this costume!  I remember him wearing it at four with the bottom half way to his knees and the back ripped to make it fit!!

Our precious boy!  Cade and I had a date night at Kemah while dad was away!  Precious!!

Here We Go

Soooo...it's finally time for us to officially get started with the invetro process. The past couple of months Darrell and I had to choose our egg donor and sperm donor. What a process that was!!

As of Friday, March 22nd, our egg donor started her cycle...so that meant it was time for us to get our "calendar" set up. Today (Monday, April 1st) I started on the meds to move us forward. It looks like we will have possible transfer dates of May 2-4 (all of this depends on when they retrieve the eggs from our donor).

I can't explain how excited Darrell and I are about starting this!! We are SO ready to have noise in our house again. We LOVE children and are looking forward to this next chapter in our lives! We pray that everything goes smoothly and that at the end of all this we will have a beautiful child, or two, to share our life with!! Thank you so much for your continued prayers!!

A Year Already

It's hard to believe that a year has already passed since our precious little girl went to be with our Lord.  Time is a funny thing, the year has gone by quickly, but it seems like she has been gone forever.  This past week has been an emotional one.  I miss Addi more than I can explain.  I look at pictures and watch videos and take in those moments as if they happened yesterday!  I miss waking her up in the morning and her telling me "Bow, shoes, teeth!"  I miss her spilling her goldfish and saying, "Uh oh, uh mess!"  I miss her prancing around EVERYWHERE with Mr. G.  I miss her coming around the corner with every single headband hanging from her arm.  I miss rocking in the chair in the living room with her.  I miss her sleeping with Darrell on that same chair when she didn't feel good.  So many things I miss...this list goes on forever.  What a beautiful, strong little girl we had!  We miss her every day, and we are so glad that God gave her to us...even if it was for such a short amount of time! 

Check Up Doctor Appointment

Watching a movie with Mr. G

Playing on the dishwasher

Hanging out at Ashley's

Being silly

Loves to have stuff hanging from her arms

Playing with her baby

Sweet Girl!

If I'm honest, this week was actually more difficult than I thought it would be.  Darrell and I just spent our first year without either of our children, and what an adjustment that has been.  It is quiet in our house and all routine and structure that once existed is no longer there.  It's funny how when you have kids, it's all about a routine.  Now if we eat at 9:00, we eat at 9:00...no big deal (that would have never happened with the kids here)!  I also find myself looking at the pictures on our walls and dealing with that they are no longer being changed out with new ones.  With all of that said, Darrell and I are happy and continue to LOVE each other, probably even more than we ever have!  Emotional moments come and go and I'm pretty certain they always will...we love our kids and miss them dearly.  We have a strong faith and know that God provides us with the strength we need and we know that He has plans for us!  We are surrounded by wonderful people who continue to pray for us and love us and care for us!