The Carpenter's: May 2014

Monday, May 26, 2014

She Would Be Four

Today marks another birthday that we are not having with our sweet Addison! We were able to celebrate her first birthday and that's it. I'm realizing that we will always have days that are just plain tough and they are not only the birthdays. The other day I was leaving school and I just lost it. I'm driving in the car and nothing triggered the memory. Sometimes a song will come on or I'll see something and that will get the tears flowing. That day I just pictured her poking her head around a hospital wall in her little capris and Toms, just like it was yesterday. I miss her SO much! I wonder what she would look like and what she would be into. It just stinks!!

First Birthday

This is the memory

I'm so thankful that we have so many pictures and videos of her. One of my favorite things to do is look through old pictures and watch the videos I have of her and her brother. That way, I'll never forget the sound of their voices and all of the little and big things we did together. You learn real quick, there is no such thing as too many pictures!! We have pictures that show everything that Addison was and everything that she loved. She was such a sweet girl with a lot of "Addi-tude"! She loved bows, bracelets, and books. AND her absolute favorite…Mr. G! We didn't go anywhere without him!! I miss her dancing, smiles, laughs, and most of all her hugs and kisses!!

She went everywhere with Mr. G

Up to something

The girl LOVED shoes…just like her mommy!

Cutie Pie

Hanging with Brody and TJ

Who can I call???

Day before her defibrillator surgery

Always happy…look at those heart scars, but more importantly look at that SMILE!

So many people ask us how we do it…how we get up in the morning and live life. The only answer I have is the big guy upstairs. God is the only way I think anyone can get through something like this. I remember getting in the car after the funeral and looking at Darrell and saying, "Now I know how some parents never get through something like this." If I felt the way I did in that moment every day, I totally understand! We have FAITH & HOPE…truthfully, that's what got us through the months we waited anxiously for a new heart and what is getting us through the life we are living now. He is our everything and who we lean on always!!

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Four Months and Counting

4 Months

Mom, these pictures are getting ridiculous!

My handsome little man

My pretty girl

Yes, I realize this post is way overdue, but life is busy and fun and I haven't had time to sit down and write about our two love bugs! They are four months old (well, actually two and a half months now) and doing so well! It's crazy how much they have grown and changed in a month. The biggest change is their personalities!! Both Easton and Emerson are so happy and you can easily make them smile (most of the time for Emerson, sometimes she gets pretty serious and doesn't want to have anything to do with smiling...it cracks me up!). Emerson is more laid back and Easton requires a little more attention at times (this keeps changing). They recognize our voices and this makes me ecstatic. I can walk into Ashley's to pick them up after school and start talking and they will find me. LOVE it!!

Heavy head...Emerson, is thinking "I mean, what's the big deal...keep your head up!"

Easton, "See I can do it!"

They are now both laughing (this takes a little more work) and rolling over. They're pretty good at the rolling over part, but it frustrates them sometimes to be on their bellies. Neither one of them have ever been big fans of being on their stomach. And, I have yet to get it on video because every time I get out the camera, they choose not to do it! Both are getting stronger and better at holding their heads up. It has taken Easton a little longer, but poor guy, he has a lot bigger head!

Emerson being a rolly polly

The other rolly polly

Sleeping is going well also. Both are still sleeping through the night which is amazing! Naps on the other hand have been a struggle. It's a work in progress trying to get both of them to nap at the same time. Nap boot camp will start once I'm out of school. Emerson does well sleeping during the day, but for some reason Easton is having trouble with soothing himself and staying asleep, or getting back to sleep if he is startled.

Everything else is going SO good! Each day is such a joy, even on the tough ones, they just smile and it makes everything better!! Love them both more than words, and of course, right up to the moon and back!!