Three Years Today

It's hard to believe how time can fly by, but at the same time it seems like its been forever.  Today marks three years since Cade passed away.  Quite frankly, I still can't believe it.  My emotions change all of the time.  I still have moments when I get mad and confused not understanding why this had to happen.  The truth is, we may never know and it doesn't really matter.  God has plans for each of us and in the end we will all be together and the answer to that question won't matter.  It just hurts still, not having him here.

There are so many things I miss about that kid!  I miss him cuddling with me on the couch.  I miss him being rough and wrestling with Darrell.  I miss him waking up in the morning with crazy hair and knowing it was time for a haircut.  One of the most things I miss is watching him with his sister.  It is one of the most amazing things to experience as a mother…the immediate love he had for Addi and the immediate protector he became of her.  I can only imagine what the two of them are up to in Heaven!

When we went to the cemetery today there were so many flowers, balloons, and new toys.  It makes me cry every time.  So many people still continue to go out there.  Darrell and I are truly blessed to be surrounded by so many people who love us and love our children!!  It makes days like these a little easier to get through!

Visiting their big brother and big sister for the first time